The day our lives changed

On December 7th, at 3:17pm, our world was forever changed. Our beautiful baby girl, Andelyn Marie, “Andi”, was born sleeping. She could not be anymore perfect, truly an angel from heaven. The tiniest features, ten perfect fingers and ten perfect toes, the darkest full head of hair, 6lb 10oz of perfection that makes this nightmare that much harder to grasp. The pain we are feeling is absolutely gut wrenching and I would not wish for anyone to ever have to feel this. I will never stop asking why? No one deserves this, but selfishly why us? Why did God choose her? Why did she make it full term to be ripped away from us so suddenly? She was physically a part of me for 9 months, and in an instant just gone. I will never understand it. The guilt, the blame, the what if’s can literally eat us alive, but we need to somehow move forward with this gaping hole in our hearts. We are blessed with two beautiful boys who were beyond excited to have a baby sister and who need their mommy and daddy now more than ever. We have each other and an amazing support system in our family and friends, but please keep us in your prayers. A good friend said that there has to be a reason to pray, although lately it feels like all these prayers are for nothing, there has to be reason somewhere. So please pray for us. This will be the hardest road to travel with no end in sight, but I have faith in our love and strength for each other and know that our beautiful guardian angel will be with us always.

We love you beyond any words could ever explain, Andelyn Marie our precious, perfect angel.. until we meet again one day in heaven, we will never stop loving you sweet girl.